I'll understand if you don't want me. I'm heartbroken. My best wishes for your life much and much more without me. Please understand that I didn't think I was mean-minded. At the very first step i didn't know it will hurt your feeling, needs a while for my head to finally think. But I realize I am. I don't want you to put your arms around me and say it's all right, that you forgive me. I want you to be sure that you do, and my love for you will last as long as I live. I can see no lightness, no humour, no joke to make. I just hope that we will be able to go back to when we had laughter, and the world was coloured, not black and white and grey. I am so sorry for hurting you. I could inflict all kinds of pain on myself, but it would not take back any I gave to you.
Jkt, 25Jan 2013